Daily insights into recovery

Motivation for me came after treatment not before . Because motivation for the things that keep you sober like tolerance , patientce did not even occur to me while i was using or drinking.At that time it was just a over powering desire for abstanance . So i wonder why all the doctors,councellors and social workers i met before coming to treatment insist on motivation.Acutally the type of motivation that comes to than the motivation that comes to stop using or drinking.My drug crazed mind was hell bent on the will power trip which made the tension in me more ,icould not sllep,talk , i was so angry .But after coming into treatment the type of motivation was to learn tolerance,stay calm , not get ruffeld, to talk the truth .Nothing to do with the taking or stoping to take drugs or anything else to do with will power.This made me calm and therefore i could sleep,talk and be myself.