Just For Today

"Relapse is never an accident. Relapse is a sign that we have a reservation in our program." Basic Text, pg 76.

Today's quote is very applicable to my life today, since I had a relapse and had reservations in my program. I was only doing the program for my family's sake not taking into account my own life. I was only trying to please people around me and didn't think about my own happiness. I now believe that the program must be done for me and not for anyone else. I now understand this, only came to light for me in the past 24hrs or so. Only thought rigorous counselling and speaking to those who have lived a longer life of recovery have I been able to make a decision to take the program for "ME" and not for anyone else. I hope to now apply what I have learned in the past 19months of treatment, to application of real life. Hope my higher power is on my side and will assist me in living a happy life of recovery. I forsee my future in my dreams it's now time to live it in reality and not live a fantasy life.