Anger

Prayer for the day

I pray that I may take my suffering in my stride. I pray that I may accept pain and defeat as part of God's plan for my spiritual growth.

Meditation for the Day

I belive that all sacrifice and all suffering are of value to me. When I am in pain, I am being tested. Can I trust God, no matter how low I feel? Can I say "Thy will be done," no matter how much I am defeated? If I can, my faith is real and practical. It works in bad times as well as in good times. The Divine Will is working in a way that is beyond my finite mind to understand, but I can still trust in it.

Thought of the day

Drinking cuts you off from God. No matter how you were brought up, no matter what your religion is, no matter if you say you believe in God, nevertheless you build up a wall between you and God by your drinking. You know your're not living the way God wants you to. As a result, you have that terrible remorse. When you come into AA, you begin to get right witht other people and with God. A sober life is a happy life, because by giving up drinking, we've god rid of our loneliness and remorse. Do I have real fellowship with other people and with God?

We need hope in our recovery

trust is a risky proposition,we could not be trusted.
Now that we are in Recovery TRUST is important.

Addiction Tree

Branches of the addiction tree...

Higher Power

I got up early and waiting for the time to be 5:45am as that was the official waking time, followed by morning prayer and exercise. Today I can see that is a miracle because i could never get up on time nor pray or do anything on time. In class when the counseller told me that my answer was not to the point & was still behind on my monkey thinking. I could very easily accept what the counseller told about my defective way of thinking & felt motivated to change myself. The miracle is that today when my defects are pointed out to me i simply accept it without getting angry & do my best to correct myself-today the miracle i can see in my life which is because of the higher power (the group) is that my life is very disciplined. I am able to do everything from morning till night as the program demands without cribbing about shortcomings with the help of god & the group I am becoming more self discipilined.
I was reminding for some time about my broken guitar one day while in the office for some computer work some visitor came & it so happened that he was a music person & immidiatley offered to repair my guitar. I was so thrilled & happy about the way god works. Now I would play some music in my freetime & also teach others. I feel fulfilled because music is very dear to me.

addicts thoughts

I understand the importatance of an inventory when i came to know about my negative personality which helped me to realize my feeling which made me feel lighter and stronger. I never realized the pain I had given my family till i understood the program and felt the guilt and shame of the pain i had given. In the centre i had enough time for myself and my mind was free from the addiction so I had the chance to look at my innerself. Away from my family and new environment I know nobody i slowly learned to trust my fellow addicts and had a lot of trust in god for my recovery.

thoughts from an addict

Knowing about my disease : I got to know of my disease when the counsellor explained it to me in the session and when i look back in the past i could realize the facts which made me confident and comfortable about the same.
Keeping clean : Keeping clean makes us comfortable confident and fresh thoughout the day. Good thoughts come to my mind & hygene is utmost important as a moral value on its own.
Knowing about my defects : Knowing about my defects helps me to overcome it and treat it. I could stay away from making mistakes in those weak areas. I can make myself powerfull in my strong areas & succed
I am responsesible for my recovery : I am not responsible for my disease but i am responsible for my recovery. It is my responsibility to stay away from my substance & in touch with my feelings.

reflections from a recoverying addict

Feeling for the pain i have given : Now after writing about myself and taking a deep inventory i have found out the pain and suffering i have caused at home and to my loved ones.
Thinking positive : Through my recovery i have completely learnt to change my attitude and start thinking really positively.
Accepting my disease : I have accepted that i am born that way and i am powerless over this disease.
I cant do it alone, I need help : I have found out that i cannot fight my battle with addiction, that i need all the help from the people around me. My parents, my sponsor and friends at NA/AA.
My faith in God is growing : Over the past few months my faith and trust in god has grown. Now i believe more in him, because god will show me the way out of the problem